My Deepest Fear

My deepest fear is not that I am inadequate.

My deepest fear is that I am powerful beyond measure.

It is my light, not my darkness that most frightens me.

I ask myself, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who am I not to be?

I am a child of God.

My playing small does not serve the world.

There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around me.

I am born to make manifest the glory of God that is within me.

It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.

And as I let my own light shine, I unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As I am liberated from my own fear, my presence automatically liberates others.

—Marianne Williamson/ rearranged by Eileen Eng

This quotation has been hanging on the clinic bulletin board for 20 years or more.  After spending 7 years to become a licensed naturopathic doctor I said “I know a whole bunch of stuff, but I’m still unclear as to what healing really is.  The question of what is healing  has led  me to discover  hidden places within me that are the gifts of my magnificence!

The question I ask you in this moment is…. How do I receive the courage to be the magnificent being that is truly me?  Anything that doesn’t allow me to have the courage to be the magnificence I truly be, destroy and uncreate now on a count of 3….1,2,3, Swish.

What if  FEAR is nothing other than False Evidence Appearing Real.  It’s the stuff that all seekers of truth have taken their power back from.  Some call it MAYA, others call it ILLUSION, sometimes it is just simply B.S.

In this moment I ask you to consider this exercise…Get centered in your heart. You can use the image of you being a magnificent  tree supported by the Earth Mother below and the Heavenly Father of the Universe above. Feel yourself enveloped by their loving energies then read aloud the above quote.

Do this a number of times and notice what changes you become aware of.  What  miracles would come your way as you take this stance every day and remember who you truly be?

How does it get better than this?

With Love and Light,



I’ve been living my life from the point of view that I’m the creator of my own reality.  No matter what is created, the so called good, bad and the ugly, it’s all my own creations.  Why would one want to take responsibility for their creations?  If what you have created is something you would not prefer, then you can destroy and uncreate it.  It’s that easy.

If you created something that you like, then you can continue to recreate, and create more.  That’s power.   How does it get better than that?

On the other hand, if one chooses to see what happens to them is because of someone else, then one can not do anything to change their circumstances.  This sure sounds to me like victimhood, and that isn’t fun.

So today I ask you what do you choose, victim/ victimizer,  or GOD… Generator, Organizer, Destroyer/Deliverer?

Some people may think they are the chosen ones, I say I am a choosing one.  Anything that doesn’t allow you to be the empowered choosing one will you destroy and uncreate?   On a count of 3… 1,2,3, Swish.

I’d like to offer you a ritual that I have done for years and years.  So prepare yourself with:

  1. pen and paper or computer
  2. a timer/watch set for 30 minutes

Now take some long deep breaths.  I suggest you focus on the exhale, and allow the in breath to automatically come in on it’s own.  You may even like to center yourself by imagining you are a beautiful and magnificent tree, and your legs and feet and toes are like the roots going deep into the Earth.  Allow yourself to be the infinite being you truly be, that without the limitations of time, money, age , looks, education etc that lock you up in a no choice reality, what would you create that would be yummy for you?

Set an intent to listen to the quiet voice in your heart.  Then start writing.

Don’t stop till you’ve reached 108 things that you’d like to show up in your world.  I suggest 30 minutes so you don’t think too much.  Tuck this list away in a place where you won’t find it till next year.  Even better put it in an envelope with your name and address and give it to a friend who will send it to you next year.

You’ll be delighted at how powerful you are, and how your life will be more heaven on Earth.

I have achieved most of all that was on my original list and more.

How does it get better than this?

With Love and Light,



It may seem like today is just another day,  December 21, 2012 has come and gone.  I’ve been waiting for this auspicious day for a long time.  I remember I was meditating on the Harmonic Convergence in 1987.  I remember it so clearly because I was on a train from Paris France going to Zurich Switzerland.  I remember my intent to hold the highest light for myself and the planet of peace and love.  All these years later I stay steady to this intent, however I know I have more to share, and that it is why I’m here sharing with you today.

I asked myself what would I like to create this year.   All sorts of ideas emerged  from within, then something unusual made it’s voice heard.  This is what it said, “I’d like to Blog”.

I spoke this out loud to my husband Dev Khalsa, and immediately he  set me up with a blogging page.  I got in one moment excited, then in another a feeling of fear and terror. I hear a voice that said ” you’re not a writer, English is your second language, remember how you got embarrassed when in primary school you said ” I cutted my hair”, thinking that if something was done in the past, all one then needed to do was add “ed” to indicate past tense.  Before I could digest that criticism, another one pushed to the forefront and said “you’re going to expose yourself and get hurt”.  It  was not a single voice.

Can you imagine …. I was a very shy little Chinese girl who now has a voice.

So despite my deficiencies in the correct use of the English language I managed to become well learned.   My intent is to share some of the interesting things I’ve learned as I travelled along my path.  This forum is a new way for me to express myself.  This brings me to this point I’d like to share with you today.

Give yourself permission to take a risk and do something you’ve not done before.   We become more of who we truly be when we step out of the box of the limitations of what we think we are in this reality. Shall we destroy and uncreate anything that doesn’t allow us to do this?  On a count of 3…. 1,2,3 Swish.

How does it get better than this?

With Love and Light,